You see, once I got rid of the disgusting bed bugs, I’ve since then had to watch out for all the other bugs coming at me and you know what? They are not as easy to spot as a little teeny tiny bed bug, but like bed bugs they will creep out slyly and want to latch on to you and suck you dry whether it is your emotions, your time or holding you back as you try to make your way out of the mess you are already dealing with.
Yep, human bugs are worse than bed bugs. Where bed bugs come out only at night, unfortunately human bugs will come at ya anytime of the day and disguise themselves as blessings so be aware and be careful, because just when you think you’re getting blessed, you get bit right in the ass.
You will find two kinds of people during this time.
There are those who really come with true blessings and come with like I mentioned before, a variety of blessings. Some may be monetary, some will be with information (information is a great blessing and my favorite) and some with inspiration, which in the end will be what really gets you through it all. These people have no other intent but to help because THEY CAN and what makes it a true blessing is that they are looking for nothing in return. Trust me these people exist and they too will be blessed in the end.
Unfortunately, you have to get the Raid ready because there are the bugs out there that see your misfortune as THEIR OPPORTUNITY. They have their own agenda and unfortunately it is at the expense of your adversity. Any offerings they make will come with a price tag, usually a very heavy price tag.
These bugs will offer help and want you to think you are getting blessed only in hopes that in the end they will receive something. That something could be an array of things from a greater monetary reward in the end if they loan you money, a way in which they can make themselves feel good (yes, some people help you not to make you feel better but to make themselves feel better as they are insecure in life and can only feel better about themselves if they feel they have something over someone else), then there are the bugs who hope to gain friendships and/or relationships through their offerings and lastly, those who will not even truly want to help but will try to distract you from your mission because in the end, they really don’t want to see you succeed. If you succeed they feel you might be happier than they are and God forbid they should find happiness within themselves. These folks are the bugs that we as a society need to find a spray for and make you wonder as my daughter would say, “How the hell did they make it this far in life?”
Now folks, you know out there who you are disguising yourselves as people when you know damn well you’re a bug. Stand up and stop hiding behind the costume.
And please, if you have any self value or an ounce of compassion, do not try and take advantage of someone who is already down. My vast experience with bugs has now taught me to spot a bug fairly quickly, how to handle them (open up a can of whip ass) 
when they do eventually make a true appearance or if nothing else run fast as lightning for my life and change all numbers immediately. Unfortunately though, there are some people who are down and out and just can’t see you bugs coming or are tired from the struggle and can’t run as fast so for the sake of those people, I beg of you, leave those people/us alone and find someone else to bite.
when they do eventually make a true appearance or if nothing else run fast as lightning for my life and change all numbers immediately. Unfortunately though, there are some people who are down and out and just can’t see you bugs coming or are tired from the struggle and can’t run as fast so for the sake of those people, I beg of you, leave those people/us alone and find someone else to bite. Here’s a story about a bug that came out of the wood works almost twenty years later. Like those nasty disgusting bed bugs who can hide and hibernate in a crack of furniture up to eighteen months so can some humans until they are ready to come out and bite you right in the ass.
I went through another financial struggle many years a go and bugs were every where. I had a then friend (note that, A THEN FRIEND) call me during my financial dilemma and OFFERED (note that, SHE OFFERED. I did not ask) to lend me $1,000 to help pay part of my then mortgage. Actually her offer was grander. She said, whatever you need I have just say the amount, because I have $75,000 cash saved up for a rainy day and I know you’re good for it. Well, I had known this person for eighteen years and she definitely knew I was good for it, but I was beyond shocked when she told me she had $75,000 cash saved. I mean she lived in the projects, was on public assistance and yes, had a full time job too but damn public assistance was that good, $75,000. Where the hell do I apply was what I was thinking but I digress.
We were LIKE sisters and knew each other for over 18 years as mentioned and when she was down and out, I brought bags of groceries I got using my thrifty coupons and never asked for gas even though I travelled from Long Island and she lived in Brooklyn and things were rough for me too as a single mother trying to make ends meet (and now that I think about it, how the hell was she ever down and out and accepting my groceries with $75,000 stashed. Again, I digress). I even let her use my address in Long Island to save her over $1,300 a year in car insurance fees over three years (do the math). It was only right that I accepted the loan and ACCEPT THIS BLESSSING. Here’s that Charlie Murphy yelling in my ear again, WRONG!
I will never forget the day she loaned me the money (I only accepted what I truly needed at the time $1,000 because I hate borrowing money). It was Christmas Eve and she said, “Merry Christmas and take your time paying me back just get yourself together.”
Well perhaps she blew through that $75,000 she bragged about quicker than the average person because by Jan. 15th she was asking if and when I was filing my taxes because she wanted and needed her money back.
Now pay attention because here’s where I really got blessed as the loan was obviously not a blessing. Suddenly without filing my taxes money swiftly started coming through my hands. That was the day I learned to turn my groceries I bought for $20 with coupons into $150 by selling them to the bodegas. Within two weeks of hustling groceries out of the back of my trunk, I was able to pay her back that $1,000. But, here’s where a bug isn’t satisfied with just a bite, they want to suck your blood until you’re dry. She then told me after I paid her back in full within less than a month; she now wanted $350 interest on the loan. No that is not a misprint, that’s exactly what I typed. $350 interest on a loan not even a month old. I was better off going to see Gotti's boys with that kind of interest.
Now most people would say, F*&% that you and you must be crazy if you gave her back an additional $350. But you see I was blessed yet again. I got my tax money a week later and I gave her the $350 interest she wanted. And then with her eyes wide open in shock she said, “I hope you’re not upset that I had to charge you interest but there were fees involved….” and before she could continue I stopped her. I told her of course she had to charge me interest and of course fees were involved and it was all good. We were good.
Now of course I never spoke with this woman ever again although she tried to reach out to me on a few occasions. I gave her the $350 for a number of reasons. The first is that money is fleeting and it comes and it goes. $350 was and even in my current state pocket change as it couldn’t even pay my rent perhaps the cell phone bill and cable and a few groceries if I’m lucky. Secondly and most importantly, this wasn’t about the money and I knew that. This was about ENVY and FEAR. Combined they are deadly.
You see this woman was always envious that I owned a home and she lived in the projects and although she had the financial ability to move out she had something else that was worse that crippled her from moving out. She had fear!
My courage to go out and purchase a home on my own and trust me with a whole lot less than $75,000, hell a lot less than $7,500 just irritated her to the bone. Her envy of my courage and survival was killing her and so she used the money as a way she thought and hoped would break me. And although to some it may seem like I wasn’t blessed I truly was because in the end I wiped a bug out in thirty days. Could you imagine having it continue to hibernate and near me for another twenty years to come to bite me even harder in the ass?
My survival tool today people is keep an eye out for bugs and even those that bite can eventually be stomped out and lead way for many blessings to come. So sleep tight tonight, don’t let the bed bugs bite because tomorrow is another day. In fact, tomorrow will be a great day! Who knows, maybe we’ll all stomp a bug along the way.
